Dare I write this post....

Tending to be a very private person, I do not share a lot of personal struggles with very many people. Other than my Lord and Saviour. (He knows my struggles better than I) I am feeling that I can share this with my blogging family as I know those who read it are of an encouraging spirit and supportive. So what is this thing I was afraid to post.......

I've joined weight watchers well actually been there for a few weeks. Only complaint so far is the cost. I have lost 13 lbs and am excited to be on the road to better health.  Strange as it may sound, my main reason for joining is cause it felt like this was the
"one " thing I could have a positive impact in my life. There has been alot of instability and stress this past year and even more so these past few months. To be honest I can not do alot about most of it, other than pray about it. BUT..... getting healthy that I can work on.

So I am still struggling with thyroid problems and tend to have no energy most the time, but am believing that the weight loss has got to help that too...   Phew.... I've done it!! I have shared my secret with all my blogging friends and I'm glad. I will try and keep my progress up to date on here. (when my computer allows--tends to knock me off blogspot for some reason).

To close I am reminded of the verse that says " I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME" Let it be so Lord, not just for me but for anyone who is struggling in their life.

~~djdeb's ramblings ~~

The LORD is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower. PSALMS 18:2 kjv

Lately I catch myself praying short prayers of "Lord, give me strength". Over and over I am seeking him for strength.. Never would I have imagined that I would feel so tired, worn out and lethargic. That has described my last few months. I have been sick with bronchitis and some other cold symptoms, but I believe behind it all is my thyroid acting up. Tomorrow I am going to get some blood work and am praying that it will give the level that is needed for an increase in my medicine.

If you have ever heard of anyone with thyroid problems, I am sure you have heard their struggles with their levels. As I am sure I have mentioned before I was hyperthyroid to begin with and ended up having radiation to kill most of the thyroid. The dying of the thyroid takes years to occur (something I learned recently--even though the radiation occurred years back) and the regulating your thyroid levels will always be a part of my life. So I have said all this to say that I have sooooooo needed "strength" and the only place I can seek it is in Christ. He has gotten me through the workdays and I have rested most weekends.

I feel as if many do not understand and see me tired out primarily because of my weight. My weight is a big hindrance and some of it is a result of hypothyroidism. So I am going to continue to seek God for the strength and pursue the doctor to use the medical support there is available for me.

The other night I was suffering a migraine and was trying to rest and all I could sing was this song.

I kept singing I believe your my healer, I believe your more than enough for me.... JESUS you're all I need!!! Lord, I'm holding tight to your promise of strength in your word and will sing in my heart this song to you My Healer!

~~Silly me~~

Well, I made some adjustments to my blog and.... lost my widgets.. I think that is what you call it. Silly me. Now I am trying to figure where I can find them. I should have hit SAVE!!! oh well.. Nice lighthouse background though...

I have spent the weekend and day off from work at home. Except for one trip to Walmart for my mom and Kmart for me. Just been fighting some kind of sickness. Fever, icky feeling and coughing is the last part of it.

At first I thought it might be due to my new meds for my thyroid. Still could be...
I did have a CT scan as they were concerned about graves disease. It looks like I do not have that. Thank you Lord. I am just hoping that I will be able to have energy again. It has been so long..

ENOUGH about ME!!

I am so confused and concerned with all the political events going on. I just pray that a GOD fearing person gets into office. I feel like so many that are running appear to be drawing the "Popular" people in America. Maybe it's me but I could care a less what some actor or actress thinks about who I should vote for. Since when did they become experts in running the country. What scares me is so many people feel drawn to what ever their favorite musicians or actors support; without thought. GOD be with us all.....

....just a lil' from DJDEB's perspective......

update on my thyroid issues

Well after a year and a half of trying to persuade my Doctor I was experiencing some hypo thyroid issues. I have now been put on meds for 3 days, So Lord willing some day soon I will have more energy and start feeling better. I look forward to it. I was actually happy to hear my doctors diagnosis, as I now feel I was not going crazy with how I was feeling.

It's been a long week and I have been looking forward to this weekend. It amazes me how when you begin to feel secure in something and there is always something or someone to knock you back down. It has been a frustrating work week.

I have got to be confident that in all things I CAN TRUST THAT GOD is in control. So when my "insecurities" rear their ugly head, I need to remember I am a child of the king. He promises me HE is with me always and I can believe and trust in Him and in the woman he has made me to be.
Sorry for the sermon my blogger readers.. I am preaching to myself,but maybe it will encourage you.

I will close with some words from an old hymn..

"I know whom I have believed and am persuaded that He is able to keep that which I've committed unto HIM against that day"
(please forgive my errors above--but BE strong in your beliefs and never fall away from the faith you have in Christ and the faith He has in you... GOD BLESS

djdeb ramblins..

Well I decided I needed to post tonight. I have been experiencing some swelling and pain in my right eye. I was thinking it was because I was on the computer too much and this is a new computer. It finally clicked with me that it is the same pain I experienced prior to my diagnosis of thyroid problems. I got on to a site last night and I am experiencing alot of symptoms of thyroid problems.

Now I have to try and persuade my doctor. I love my doctor but I have felt I needed meds for my thyroid for awhile but the tests were not at a certain level. I am trying to type this without going thru all the issues. I am so wanting to be on the net more and am hoping my eyes will allow me to. It probably does not help that my job requires all day computer work. The difference is Work, not my blogging fun... :)

Anywho.. Another monday has come and gone and 4 days till its TGIF!!! or if ya like football 6 days till that bowl thing. LOL...GO GIANTS!! Sorry my New England friends...

GOD BLESS djdeb